So I haven’t posted in a while and things have been going pretty well overall. Next x-rays are this coming Monday and hopefully the bone is healing inside. I certainly am getting stronger and am able to do a lot more in terms of weight bearing and therapy but then I remember the date and it’s a bit terrifying…
The accident was one year ago today (about an hour from me posting this) and I’m still on crutches and have all of these limits imposed on my life; all because of some asshole stealing a car, not paying attention, and running into me on my way home from work. It makes me angry, thankful, and I’ve been very much in a reflective mood for most of the day today.
I thought it would help me to share some of the highlights (good and bad) from the past year in order to acknowledge them all and then work to move on. Here we go:
[list-ul type=”cross”][li-row]~ 50 days of being inpatient in hospitals[/li-row][li-row]6 operations[/li-row][li-row]A relationship has evolved into an amazing partnership (I <3 you Charles)[/li-row][li-row]I got my parents to be in SF for more time than ever before[/li-row][li-row]Kaiser has had more walkers than I would have ever dreamed[/li-row][li-row]3 Physical Therapists – all of who are awesome[/li-row][li-row]A team of amazing doctors (all 4 of the core team)[/li-row][li-row]Have met some amazing nurses, techs, and volunteers[/li-row][li-row]Bought a house in Oakland[/li-row][li-row]Have experienced living with a roommate[/li-row][li-row]Met the bf’s parents[/li-row][li-row]Have worked virtually the whole time (including while in the hospital)[/li-row][li-row]Have grown my team @ Zenefits from 1 direct report to 4[/li-row][li-row]Helped fuel the growth of our entire sales team for another year (now hundreds of people)[/li-row][li-row]Learned how special I was to many of my friends[/li-row][li-row]Virtually stopped drinking at times for most of the year[/li-row][li-row]Bought a car[/li-row][li-row]Was in 2 more accidents (luckily not hurt either time)[/li-row][li-row]Have become more patient[/li-row][li-row]Have read more but not watched more TV[/li-row][li-row]Started seeing a psychiatrist[/li-row][li-row]Have an attorney[/li-row][li-row]Had 3 temporary handicap parking placards[/li-row][li-row]Had Christmas on the West Coast for the second time in my life[/li-row][li-row]Got around all day yesterday on 1 crutch![/li-row][li-row]Am so grateful to be alive[/li-row][/list-ul]
My instinctive reaction when I talk about the accident or my healing is that I am lucky. That may not seem like the natural one, but for me it’s very easy to think about things being just a tiny bit different in the accident and massively different in the outcome. I know that I’ll overcome this and will walk and run and dance again. As someone that is hyper focused on performance and “getting shit done” getting in touch with this other side of myself and appreciating chance and what has happened has made me a better person all around.
It took me months to not tear up when I thought about the kindness of those strangers that jumped out of their cars a year ago today to call 911 or followed the driver to get a picture of the license plate and brought it back or my best friend Trace who was at the hospital as soon as he found out and held everything together and protected me and kept my family informed. The tears are flowing once again as I reflect on everything and that is ok.
I am stronger than ever before. I am a better person than ever before. I am so lucky to have so many amazing people in my life (near and far). I love and am loved.
Be safe tonight and always and please join me in sending some appreciation out into the universe tonight as I wouldn’t be here without all of the selfless gifts given to me.
Love – Jeremy